So its Nov already. Seems like I’ve been here forever and yet not at all. Its a pretty crazy feeling actually.
So I suppose I should update you on what’s going on right? I mean that’s mostly what I created this blog for and that’s prob why you are reading it, neh?
Well here’s the update. IST(basically a fancy word for training) is coming up and I’m actually pretty stoked, it will have training sessions, but it’s also a break from village life and being around a million people asking a million questions or making a million demands. Plus I get to see my frannnssss and that’s always nice.
Village life reminds me of Lancaster, a small town with nothing else to do but drink and have sex. Now, I’m not saying that’s entirely a bad thing, what I am saying is that it gets boring. You have to find new ways to keep yourself busy, my way is watching a redic amount of movies and reading books. Which at first was miserable, but I’m getting used to it and the alone time sting is easing up. I’m actually finding myself feeling relieved when school gets out and I get to run home and hang out in my room for a few hours before I have to rejoin the world and watch Generations. (A pretty awesome SAfrican soapie) Anyways, I can’t lie, village life isn’t all that grand, you walk around the village once and you’ve pretty much seen everything that there is to see. I did discover a new tuck shop a couple weeks ago which was cool. I doubt I remember how to get there though.
The term at school is ending and all the learners are pretty much taking their exams and heading home. It’s not a very exciting time for me since I don’t have exams to mark, but it is nice to enjoy the lack of stress from having to teach and mark exams and basically do my job for right now. Come Jan, that’s all gonna be different. I’m pretty ready for this phase to be over though, I wanna teach and get started with stuff, I don’t really like observing, I learn and focus better when I’m actually doing and I have the chance to fall on my ass and then get back up. But alas, I’m in PC, I don’t always get what I want or what I’m comfortable with.
Speaking of teaching I have a tentative schedule that I will be teaching. I will have Grade 5 English which will be 10 periods, then I’ll have 8 periods of Physical Education, which means I really need to try and remember wth I learned in PE class so I can teach it. It’s part of the life skills unit so I have to review the requirements and make sure the learners know them, and that will be for all grades.(mind you in SA they don’t start teaching English until grade 4, so I’m teaching PE to learners that prob won’t understand a word I’m saying, but it’s PE, its all about the body language anyways) Then I will have some periods dedicated to the school library and having different grades come in to check out books and have reading time. I think it’s a pretty good schedule and it will def keep me busy. Not to mention I have a girl’s and boy’s group that I want to start, helping the current athletics coach with coaching, and hopefully starting a college bound group at the high school.
These are the dreams I have right now. Who knows if they’ll work, but they’re nice to think about and plan for now so I stay busy. Like I keep saying PC is all about keeping busy or you’ll go insane, not that you’re not already insane for joining PC in the first place, but yeah.
Kenny left for the Navy last Thursday, I was surprisingly ok for some reason, did a little crying while he was swearing in, but I spent so many months dreading it and stressing about it, that when the day came, I was just numb. I miss the kid, and there’s so many times I want to text him and know I can’t, but he’s starting his adventure and I couldn’t be happier or more proud of him.
I can’t deny that things here haven’t been the best. There’s still so many hurdles to jump through, things that I’m learning and trying to teach, and just dealing with myself in this crazy environment that I’ve thrown myself into. I need to be more assertive with the staff at my school and my host family. I let them say what they want to me and I just bottle it up for fear of disrespect and I’m finding myself holding resentment toward them instead of wanting to learn from them. Granted there’s things that they’re telling me that I need to listen too and I have to accept as part of my new life, but I also have to be able to say no when there are things that I just won’t do or can’t do. I might be in SA, but I am still American and I am not used to everything that goes on here, which I am trying to learn, but there are also things that just don’t need to be done. Like bathing twice a day, I’m sorry, but that’s just not gonna happen, I barley wake up early enough to get dressed and make it to school, most of the time I don’t even eat breakfast before I get to school. But little things like that I have to just say no too and stop constantly worrying about pissing someone off, because right now, the only person that keeps getting pissed off is me, and that’s not really gonna help me get through the next two years.
Other than that, things are getting along. The homesickness is easing up and I’m getting into a routine and kinda just going through the motions. Not the best way to go about it, but hey, I’m still here, and no one can really say shit about how I’m getting through my service. I’m ready to start teaching and get the new year underway. But I’m also SUPER ready to go on vacation in Dec and actually get to be a tourist. I’m sure I’ll write a separate post about it when it gets here. So I’m not gonna talk too much about it now. Just counting down the days until Sunday and then till vaca. Cause PCV life is mostly about the countdowns. Sad but true. Until the next time I get wifi. I’m out!